McD.

Studied in McD last Saturday till the 7am of the next morning.
Together with Lavinia & Wen .
I can't believe in myself too ,
But . That's true =p

Ugh, I look weird in spectacles.
& panda eyes :(
& chubby face T,T

Ganbate for T10, although I still haven't studied what Ms.Joyce want.
Oh my gawd .

Off to bed now.
Nights =)

p.s : Cherish everyone around you =)

Paparazzi .

Looks like clubbing, but we are not !

Credits to Theo for the Black & White .

We are not in the clubbing mode yet.
Assignments, catch up revision, tests , & financial crisis .

Hey readers,
Will update more about my current life .
See ya =)

Just a short update to prove that I'm still alive .
=)

Birthday #3

From Lavinia & Theo =)

Soft toy from Chong Lip =)
Argh, I don't look as blur as this dog la .
Blek :p

From my girls =)
Thanks !

Thankss =)

Thank you =)

Thanks for the presents =)
Love ya !

Happy Birthday to all 28th August Babies =)
I realised that 4 of my classmates shares the same birthday !
HAHA :D

My Sweet 19th ♥

3rd cake =)

I am officially 19 now =)
& My birthday celebration was fantastic & touching .
Although Lavinia failed to surprise me at the 1st time.
They succeeded in surprising me at the 2nd time .

Thanks for the video clip you guys made for me .
Lowena for the idea, Lavinia for informing & Theo for the editing work .
Although I didn't managed to cry as you guys wished,
I feel really really really touched by this .

& Thanks to my classmates who attended the celebration .
Loves =)

Thank you to all of you :)

Thank you to all who wished me in the Video, Facebook, Msg-es, Phone call & MSN .

I THANK YOU HERE .♥

I am blessed with all of your blessing .
Love ya =)

Jett Kyii & Kelly =)

Camwhore shot =)

All of my classmates =)

I love this actually ,
HAHA =)

Levi & I .
Thanks for the bday msg .
You are really sweet =)

Vivian & me.
I miss sitting beside her :(
Must study hard hard ya !!

The restaurant provided this GIANT milky tea for free ,
& Alex & Theo camwhored so much with this .
HAHA :D

Me with the GIANT milk tea =)

THANKS =)

Ahh . It was so hard to take out the candle !!

While watching the video,
Hey, my eyes got wet la,
But I didn't cry =D

THANK YOU !!

Group shot =)

Lavinia & I ♥

Although you failed to surprise me at 1st ,
But I do thank you for this =)
I do touched by your arrangement !
Love ya !! ♥

My Girls .
Thanks for coming ya =)))))

Astar & I .
Thank you for the key chain ! :D

Gareth & Astar & Me.
Thank you Gareth for the video ! =)

Muaksssss <3>

Lavinia, Me, Alex & Theo =)

Wen & I

The effect of this picture is nice =)
HAHA .

Theo, Jett Kyii & Kelly =)

Theo is so friendly that night ,
HAHA.

Me & Vivian !

Alex & I :)
Yala, you very leng zai ok ! :D

Last but not least,
Our syiok sendiri picture =)

& How I wish Lowena is there.
I still owe you a hug ya .
Because I hugged everyone that night =)

p.s : Thank you for the surprise & thanks for the celebration !
& thanks for the video . THANK YOU !

YOU GUYS MADE MY 19TH BIRTHDAY SO GREAT !!
THANKSSSSSSSSSS <3

Birthday wish : ♥ Get myself pass my CAT & ACCA smoothly .
♥ Get a myself a boyfriend. HAHA .
♥ Secret =)

Birthday #2

Will update my birthday post soon !! =)
Class commenced & I've missed so much so I don't have much time to update !
I will update it as soon as possible !!! PROMISE !
It was a fantastic & touching celebration !
Wait for my longest bday thank you post =))

THANKS !!

Night before my birthday ,
Yum Cha with Alex, Theo & Lavinia at Asia Cafe,
Spotted Kah Fai =)
He is so handsome & humble !!

Regert of not putting any makeup !! :(
& dressed like siao poh !

Theo & I .

Alex & I .

My 2nd best birthday gift =)
Love ya !! <3

Birthday .

Ugh, small eyes -_-

Me & my brother.

Me & my sister in law.

Happy Birthday in advance for myself =)

Keep on moving friends =)

NOTE : THIS IS NOT AN EMO POST OK, I'M MOTIVATING OTHERS.

Chatted with my friend yesterday .
He say he is fear of failing again .

Failing is not an excuse for not moving foward .
We can't be scared & demotivated by failing .
In fact,
We should be stronger than last time .
You can't blame anyone for failing, you can only blame yourself.
You are the one that make yourself fail .

Everyone deserves for second chance,
But not for third or fourth chance .
Because this will makes you confident level to be lower, & your self esteem as well.
Do make a rainbow from the second chance given to you .
Cherish the second chance given to you .

Yea, for sure you will be down & do not want to see anyone after the failure.
But, it doesn't mean that you can stay there forever .
Time still running.
Earth still turning .
It's ok to cry or emo for the first 2 or 3 days after your failure .
& Please,
Do not keep your tears in your heart .
Cry it out as loud as possible.
& do talk to someone if you feel that you can't let it go .
It do help you a lot , a lot .

For me,
I experienced failure before.
Failed twice & only managed to pass on the 3rd time of my driving test,
& being laughed for so many times.
But I still make myself passed the test on the 3rd time.
Just because,
I don't want others look down on me.

For this,
Failing one of the last 3 papers of my CAT,
Will be biggest failure in my life now.
But, I will take this as my motivation to study even better.
I know that I'm not as good as others . So, I need to work even harder than others.
I know that I'm lazy . So , I need to shed off this before my class commence .
I know ACCA is not easy . So I need to be more hardworking & hardworking.
I know that I'm so lucky because I just have one paper for this 3 months as compared to others,who is taking 2, 3 or even 4 papers.
I know that I'm lucky because I have another chance for my ACCA , to go for better grade next time.

But,
I know that if I passed my CAT so easy ,
For sure I will bring this " pass only " mode for my ACCA as well .
Now, my view for this changed 360 degree .
I know what I want now.
I don't want to have a just pass grade, but higher grade .
I want my first class degree.
I'm lucky, because ,
I still have another chance to work hard for my ACCA.
Although I will slower by 4 months as compared to others.
& the cost for this is way too high, but it worth a lot, a lot.
I know failing is not because I didn't study, is that I am over confident that I will pass my CAT .
Oh well, over confident is not good anyway .
Do have confident, but not too over.

So friends,
Don't ever strike down by this word - F-A-I-L .
Everyone deserves for second chance .
Take this as challenge to move on .
Life won't goes so smooth .
There will be challenges waiting for you in every stages of your life. =)

Listen to " The Climb, Miley Cyrus" whenever you feel demotivated .

p.s : Fail once doesn't mean that you will fail forever, have faith on yourself,that's what my daddy told me . Hope it helps you all =) .

Remember, don't feel demotivated by FAILING .
Sometimes we have to lose something . =)
If not, we won't treasure what we have now .
Stand up from where you fall down .
Do not feel ashamed of yourself.
Life still goes on babe !! =))))
Rewrite your future !

& after letting go, my shoulder is no longer so heavy .
I'm back, but it's definately not the lazy & last minute Fredada you guys know last time =)
I'm so damn motivated now !
I will make my parents proud this time because I make the dissapointed on me so much & I will keep my words . & that's my only aim now.

I do know that lips word are easy , but I will try my very very best to fulfil every words I told my daddy . You are my motivation now . I love you daddy =)

LDR.

Read one of my classmates blog just now .
She wrote something about LDR (long distance relationship) .

For me,
I can't stand on LDR .
First few months, I will still be ok .
But,
I can't stand for seeing my bf once in a blue moon ,
Like seeing him only once in a year like what my other friends did ?
I can't stand for separating with my bf for a long period.

I'm not tough for 24/7 , 365 days .
I need a shoulder when I'm down too .
Laying on the laptop screen when I need his shoulder ?
It's like, you are having a bf , but you can't have them beside you when you need them the most .

Trusting each other is another crucial one for LDR .
For me,
You can't assure that your bf is 100% loyal to you right ?
Especially when you two separated for so long.
Curiousity will still exists sometime.
Humans do change .

NOTE:
Do not feel offended by the paragraph above .
Just my personal opinion, take it or leave it .

Many friends of mine having their LDR after high school.
& I know it sucks into maximum .
LDR is hard to maintain .
Some strong relationship flunk because of LDR.
It's not all about the period of togetherness sometimes .

Time .
& the time zone of your bf is totally different with the time you have in Malaysia.
You have to rush back to have video call with your bf, & catch up phone calls with your boy .
It's so tiring , am I right ?

You can't with your boyfriend in physical .
When you are all alone & feel like going out,
Oh well, maybe your boy will ask you to go with your friends .
But,
You can't just ask your friend accompany you everytime.
I don't like to disturb my friends.
Friends still have their own things to do .
So, watching movie , celebrating special day without bf .
I don't like this.

For me,
I experience this before. (ask me personally if you want to know, but only restricted to best friends of mine,sorry )
& It sucks .
Having phone calls & sms-es & MSN is not enough for me .
Especially when we all have our own things to do & our own busy period .
I'm selfish . I want to have my boy by my side .
It's like, I'm having a boy but I don't really have him beside me.
Luckily, I let it go before I'm going deeper.

Seriously,
I don't feel this is a lost for me of letting go this relationship .
Because , longer & longer, you will suffer because of my emo-ness & pressure I placed on you .
& for sure,
I will be the one that give up first .
I will lose my faith slowly as the time is still running .
Yes, I will .

p.s : All of you may think that I'm immature in this , but, yea, I just can't take the opportunity cost of LDR . Just forgive me for being so immature . & for those who are having LDR now, I say sorry if you feel offended by any word I vomitted here .

Happy&Contented.

Reasons why I should feel happy & contented with my life .

1) No one give up on me even though I failed that hard. Thanks =)

2) I have a lovely daddy which never fails to support me no matter in what situation . I love you daddy =)

3) I have a bunch of best friend around me & support me in my saddest moment . They never fails to cheer me up . Sorry for the emo-ing period =)

4) I get many comfort from others =)

5) I regained my confident level slowly & slowly now .

6) I have new aim now =)

7) I'm happy now.

p.s : & Thanks Theo for Mr.Muffin =)
He's so sweet,
Although he refused to give me jacket just now . HAHA
That's why I love him as my best friend.
No worries, I will neither fall in love with you nor marry to you in future.
Friends forever ! XOXO

Homesick.

My first family potrait in 2007 =)
I miss them !

& I miss him :(
I should take more pictures with my daddy ..



& I realised that I miss this little feller a lot !
& He actually climbed up this chair himself with a little help from my daddy .
& He was only 8 months old .
I want to play with him-la !
Especially when I'm not happyyyyyyyyyy

p.s : I want to go home so badly :(