17/4/2011

holla awesome people. how's april treating you all ?

awesome, not so awesome or worst ?

for me, april definately not my month la k.

month where i cried a lot, lied to myself a lot.

constant rants and emo tweets was unhealthy. i know yes, i know.

fyi, twitter is the only place i can express rants and emo shits k.

april, it started with bad thing, and it come like non stop after that. seriously, fml.

i am screwed by some friendship problems, some real life drama and my studies.

seriously, i am so lost now. i don't know what should i do, to make things right.

some lovely couples who always throw love messages at each others wall, broke up.

i was like wtf is wrong with april. so far, 5 cases. i hope no more break up cases k :(

bullshit if you trying to tell me that 'aiya, you think too much la, if you think your month real suck, then it will be suck' .

i've tried to be positive, thinking everything will be fine, but just bullshit, all bullshit. fml fml ohh fml.

i am glad that april is going to end soon. yes, 2 more weeks, everything will be fine !

i know i did make some of my friends worried. oh well, those who really care won't think that i annoyed them or what .

thanks for your concern everyone. thanks for listening to my rants, esp to alex, lavi and keli :) heart you all !

april. you totally a fool for me. let us pray for a better month after april k :)

oh well, let us start revise for finals. 7 weeks more. and i'm coming home on 4th june, wee :)

xo.

15/4/2011

想回到过去，试着抱你在怀里。。。

周杰伦的回到过去，相信没有人没听过吧。

如果你能回到过去，你会想要挽回什么呢？

如果是我，我会挽回蛮多的。时间，学业，爱情，友情。

如果能回到过去，我一定会收回我所有会伤到人的字语。

如果能回到过去，我一定会努力把我的书读好。女人吗，怎样都要有点学问的。

如果能回到过去，我一定会珍惜每个我喜欢过或者喜欢过我的人。

如果能回到过去，我一定会珍惜每分每秒，不会再把它浪费掉了。

如果能回到过去，我一定会。。。。

我真的有很多很多很多 ‘如果能回到过去’ ，很想要从来的事。

但我明白，这是不可能的。浪费掉的时间，就是浪费掉了。

错了就是错了。错过了已是错过了。哭也无补于事啊！只能后悔，但不能从来。

没关系，我们就从‘ 后悔’以及‘错了’ 学习吧！

小叮当，能借我你的时光机吗？

11/4/2011

when new year come, you always wished to be a good one.

when new month come, you will always wished it will a be a good one too.

you will always promise yourself to make things awesome, perfect .

but , if we didn't even work hard to make things perfect, awesome, how are we going to achieve it ?

people always give up when they are given some difficult problems .

they will always have this line in their mind "i can't do it" "it's impossible" "no way that i'm going to achieve that" .

god always reserve the best for us at the last place.

a little determination and confident will do the best for you!

always believe that everything happened for a reason,

and the reason is always a good one.

it might be a planning or signals from god.

just hang on there and it will come to an end .

face the problem when it comes but not to find reasons or excuses to blame or push it on/to others.

yes, it will mess a lil with your mind,emotions at first.

but at the end, it will lead and teaches you to be a stronger and better person.

yes, i admit that i am the one who always make empty promises to myself, lack of confident in achieving things(academic, relationships, friendships, etc) and i will find excuses to myself when things happened. i don't face the problem at first, i only face it when i really need to face it. i hate myself sometimes, for being undecisive.

just give me some time to change and it will be alright :)

ask for things you wanted, believe that you will get it and receive whatever results given to you.

always have faith and confident in yourself, nothing is impossible =)

today i am changing . one of my friend says this to me ; looking at you, i am away from all stresses, because you make life simple.

05/04/2011

把头发都染回深色了，代表把从前都染走了:)

嗨，你们还好吗。

好久不见，有想念我吗？三月已过了，你们过的充实吗？

我，还是这样。

把时间统统都给浪费掉了。

而且懒惰病越来越严重。无药可救了。哈哈。

考试要到了。要加油！把自己读书的责任都做好，就不用怕别人在后面怎样说你，踩你 =)

hmmm, 没什么好写的，因为现在的我心情很不好。

不好意思，不想分享，因为我要你们开心。

就让时间把不愉快的事情都带走吧。不许哭，长大了，要学会坚强 :)

眼泪是带不走烦恼的。谢谢你们在这时候，哄我笑，关心我 :)

请记住，赢一时口角输一世感情(甜姐，only you)。

珍惜眼前人。拜！

20/3/2011

life is awesome. xoxo

nahh, i am bored with those starting line.

'hey, it's been some time since i blogged! sorry bloggie, forgive me readers,etc etc'

so, i'm not going to cheat. life is treating me not good recently.

if you've been following my twitter acc , you will know what happened :(

worst breakouts ever. pimples growing everywhere and fuck the redness.

can you imagine, you can't even conceal it with slapping excessive amounts of concealer and bb cream on your face ? redness still that freaking obvious ?

ugh i am so so so down because of this T_T

and pms period somemore that time.

double emo and angry.

but now, it slowly recovers.

will share with you all if the products i'm using really effective in reducing my pimples :)

so so so , studies still like hanging. it was really omfg if you late, overslept or skipped class.

you will entirely lost in the next class. like wtf is happening now ?

but i am lucky to have friends in class lar. hehe :3

i've been missing from few lectures recently cause the weather was freaking awesome .

i will be guilty if i am not lying on my bed, enjoying the good weather :p (wtf)

meeting new friends recently and me love meeting new friends !

hey, but i really don't get it when they say.

'wah, you look so arrogant lor when i don't get to know you'

hello, will you smile to strangers even if you don't know them ?

haha, so smile to me. talk to me.

(if you've added/approved on my fb and followed my twitter la ,cause i've already made a few new friends there !)

hey hey, pats on your shoulder and say,

i don't bite :D

一半。

好久没写部落格了。

最近喜欢用中文来写部落格。虽然我的中文不好。但它却能很明确的表达我的心情。

时间过的真快。现在是三月了。你们做了些什么呢？

我，已经开始慢慢的的独立了。

独立，其实只是一个比较美的字来取代孤单。

朋友介绍了叮当的 ‘一半’。 也爱上这首歌。

句句的歌词仿佛在描述着现在的我。

‘朋友不能留得太晚，明天要上班 ’

身边的好友已经开始做工了。虽然很不习惯没有他们陪着我，但我总不能酱黏着他们吧。有时会给人感觉很烦的。

‘快乐剩一人分享 快乐就只剩一半’

当我快乐时，我不懂要跟谁分享。分享了，但那分激情已经不再了。

‘这张被单 这张睡床， 再舒服都觉得太宽’

有时，深夜。听着歌眼泪就留下来了。原来，我不是真正的快乐。

‘没有想法 有想法又能怎样，只能写部落格整晚’

这就是现在的我了。写部落格，来表达我藏在心里，从来没跟人讲过的事情。

‘自由多得让人心慌，你羡慕我 那要不要跟我交换’

对，你要和我交换吗？

‘就算把日子都填满，没人知道我多孤单，也请你别来提醒 我多孤单。’

散场的拥抱.

从前从前，有个男跟女，他们是好朋友。

他们无所不谈。什么都可以聊。

女的就渐渐爱上了那男的。男的也感觉得到。

男的在聊天的经过就会不经意的/不小心的 就给了她一点点甜甜的希望。

可能那女的自作多情吧，一直以为她有机会。

女的爱/暗恋/明恋 到很辛苦，爱的很没有方向。

最后，她宁愿伤也选择放弃他，但那感觉一直缠绕着她。

忽然有 feel 也可以忽然又没了。

她也很矛盾。究竟他要的是什么。

和他聊天，她会不经意的对着荧幕傻笑。

笑不是因为他们聊得话题有几好笑，而是和他聊天的人让她傻笑。

看他的照片，会微笑。

有时还会在睡前想想他。想起他的笑 :)

直到有一天，那女的忽然没找他。他也有点很不习惯。

一直找方法来联络她。一直问她为什么你不再找他了。

女的一直告诉自己不要心软。不可以再爱上他了。

不可以再用平常的方式和他聊天了。要对他冷一点。

告诉自己不能再为他流泪了，他根本不值得。

她爱他太深了。所以跌的太痛了。

从此以后她告诉自己，不可以再爱上错的人。

她累了，真的累了。她害怕再爱了。爱很伤。爱很痛。

她希望时间能冲淡所有的一切。

“我们还是朋友吗？是，但我们不可能再好像以前这样了。”

p.s : not referring to anyone in real life, don't relate yourself with this situation. just a random chinese post　:)

chinese new yearrr

happy belated chinese new year everyone!

haha, actually my chinese new year not really happening, but will be the best chinese new year :)

we actually talked, gathered and laughed more than we gamble this year. xo !

so, day one, we hopped into cvc's house.

cvc, our ketua tingkatan for form 5 :D

my face is so oily and pimplelicious !

this is what we called chubby face :D

the girlssss <3

group picture :D

we love this.

sooo, day 2 stay at home.

cause, it rained till flooded.

hahaha.

day 3, at my house :)

and ms chong's house .

group picture at ms chong's house.

ahh i miss the having tuition there :(

i wonder why am i posing like this.

:D

my baby niece :)

she is so sick at that time , aww :(

fav pic of all :D

loving the blue blue skyyy :3

you going to get this hair if you dyed your hair 3 times in a month.

hahaha !

bye chinese new year :)

a brand new start !

22/2/2011

"let's pretend that airplanes in the night sky are light shooting stars. i could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now"

i've got so many wishes and so many cravings now, yet too lil time and i was clueless effortless to accomplish it.

i am a certified procrastinator.

i won't give up anyway(hey,that's attitude!)

xoxo, love ya!

i'm thinking of dyeing my hair again. oh yeaaaa :x

21/2/2011

#nowplaying just a dream by nelly .

so results is out and yes, i passed all papers :)

relieved when i saw a pass on my law. hey repeat law is a nightmare okay!

so, same old motivation lines again,

for those who failed, never give up. hey, told ya life is a bitch :)

acca failed me twice! and it's pain !

for those who passed, congrats ! more challenges ahead for you guys !

and daddy i didn't dissapoint you :) love ya !

passing papers is a beginning of another nightmare(in acca). each levels are getting harder.

financial reporting is killing me , i am a slow learner, fyi T.T

all i wanted now is just pass my current 3 papers . xoxo

19/2/2010

my worst condition. bikin paiseh.

hello everyone. hello world. hello hello.

wondered where i've been is it ?

hehe, i am acting like so busy with classes(which i lost more than i really learn stuff), some random trips with best friends, gym sessions, random movie sessions and drama session. and and chinese new year too !

if you wondered how i celebrate my valentine's, a simple one. supper and movie with my awesome bff theo. oh he is the only single best friend i left now. hahaha :D

well, result is out next monday. so wish me all the best although i know which level i will be :D don't say i negative. oh well, i am so positive this time, seriously !

and, i need to learn how to earn my own money now, like what my resolutions says! (dad will be relieved) . hahaha !

till then, i will have proper updates on my melaka and chinese new year okay! love ya, xoxo

follow my twitter , if you want to stalk me bcz i am updating it 24/7, people call me tweetybird . haha just joking btw(the stalking part) .

10/2/2011

新年快乐，兔年快乐 :)

最近的我，心情好多了。

想通了，我终于放下酱多个月的挣扎。

因为，我已不想再浪费我的时间了。

决定放弃。

不再酱努力，不再玩暗恋，不再期盼，不再暧昧。

顺其自然 .

将我的时间全放在学业，减肥，友情，亲情上，。

有他们的爱，有他们逗我笑，其实，我已近很幸福了。

知足常乐 :)))

XOXO :)

29/01/2011

this month,

new casing for my baby.

hunted for this lil red devil casing for monthhsss <3

pang ee's visit :)

start to miss his lame max general knowledge and jokes already.

and how we bully him. ahaha :D

and my awesome brunette, theo :)

dyed to darkest brown, but

my hair colour dropped max max :/

it's golden here.

but why now is green ? ahaha :D

major bimboness.

hope i didn't scare you guys !

this month,

we hopped x times from bus to LRT and from LRT to monorail :)

and from malls to malls.

awesomelovemaxmax :D

my week is awesome with them :3

XOXO

*photos taken by iphone4*

25/1/2011

这几晚，都有失眠的现象。

一直骗自己去睡，但怎样都睡不着。

烦恼一大堆，但现在我选择逃避，我不想面对。

不管了，开心就好 :)

这几晚不停反复的重播 lara 的小树 以及 静茹的你会不会。

舒服的声音加上有意思的歌词，让我爱上了这两首歌。

这两首歌已经是我必唱的emo k-歌 :)

希望你们会喜欢 :)

小树。

简单的歌词，

却唱出每个想放弃但却又放不下的笨蛋。

你会不会。

歌词复杂，但静茹唱出了每个女生的心声。

“爱是水晶 好透明又怕被跌碎的心”

慢慢来，比较快

谢谢你的美好 我绝对不会忘掉。

你是否有过那么的一个人，他是你哭的理由，也是你微笑，傻笑，偷笑的理由。

你是否曾经有那么一个人，明明是有感觉的，明明很靠近了，却因为时间，自尊心，而错过可以在一起的机会。

你是否遇过那么的一个人，你时常给他暗示，希望他能 sense 到。

其实暗示也给足了。等待是漫长的，但也是值得的。

慢慢来，比较快，因为来得快也去得快。加油!

因为好的东西，是需要等待，耐心才能得到。不要放弃就对了。

但要知道，当事情不如你所想象，期待的话。就要放弃。

记住: 希望越大失望就越大 :)

22/1/2011

obsessed with blue and red recently.

people come and go. and i am used to it.

remember, when the whole world is giving up on you, don't sad don't cry don't give up.

it wasn't the end of the world yet.

you are a real failure if you are giving up on yourself .

you live for yourself and not for others.

take critics as compliments and prove them wrong :)

cheers :)

anyway i cant wait for chinese new year! it's about crap food angpaus and gatheringgg <3

and i love my bestfriends more than ever now .

i will treasure momens with them more. love you guys :)

without them, i am nothing.

xoxo

from blonde to ash.

few days ago, i am still a japanese wannabe blonde.

and everyone happily called me dumb blonde. sigh.

i over blushed my cheek and over coloured my eyes everyday .

bcz i look sick with blonde. so i am a fail blonde.

ahaha !

few days later, i am an ash brown.

alright, i actually redyed dark brown. but when mixed with my blonde, it become a bit ashy colour.

i am mad in love with my ashy brown :)

i think i look better with brown colour =D

and i no need over blush my cheek nao !

received so many negative comments on my blonde hair, but i die with no regrets, cause i tried blonde, at least once in my life :p but too bad, it stayed with me for only like, 4 to 5 days :(

but please think twice or thrice when you wanna go blonde. because you might end up having dry hair like me now, due to over-dyed hair :( fyi, i dyed my hair 3 times this month. omg.

holla !

they say when you own a smartphone, you will start to anti-social .

this is damn true :p

friends complained i anti social-ed most of the time when i'm with my BB . ahaha !

hello everyone!

neglected my blog for n years, not quiting blogging, but just the umph to blog not here yet :p

new sem starts last week. and having classes everyday was really frustrating and tiring :(

ugh i must stay strong! i know i can do it !

till then, gone through a real big changes to my hair and will share with you guys, maybe some time in the future ? :9

fan nao a lot recently, but i believe everything will be fine, soon !

alright, always love you guys ! XOXO :)

3/1/2011

girls just love toilet break. hehe :p

walked and shopped for the whole day, and i can't feel my legs anymore.

i just love discounted items. omg this is freaking crazy !

haha, till then, uni starts tomorrow and this means, stress coming again.

result is coming out next month and this really fml .

anyway, i just can't wait to meet my girlfriends <3

and time to start my gym schedule and diet plan again !

so nice till can die.

jason chen, his voice is farking awesome. awesome max max. awesome to the infinity.

i would have marry him if he willing to sing my fav. song. ok fine, i was just joking.

guys who can sing, really can make girls crazy over them.

omg omg.

here's some of my fav videos of him. FTW i just can't stop repeating those videos.

and i secretly downloaded them. ahahaha :D

fairy tales .

things you don't know.

WTF CAN DIE .

everyday.

wtfwtf this is mad awesome. rawrrrr

sweet die me. omg

grenade.

awesome , yessss !

awwwww ahhhhhhhhh ;D